Even if. Even if. Really.

You and your T know each other so well after three years. I have told my T some kind of awful things I've done and he hasn't batted an eye, really. He just asks how I feel and we go from there, and he still loves me, and he's still him, and I'm still me.

What if you ask T the very thing you asked me in that post? For me, the safest thing is to talk about talking about it for as long as I need to. Once I've asked every question, talked about every reason I'm scared, talk about all of the things I'm afraid will happen if I tell...something inside me opens up and I start to be able to tell the story a little bit.