that "little girl" does feel better...whenever i take the time to process what I am feeling ... through writing.

Right now, I'm crying my eyes out and can't help it... I think if I wasn't crying right now I'd be cutting... but, even my tears are like an experience of letting that little girl be heard...letting me actually FEEL the pain..which I haven't wanted to do.

and sannah, your right. won't really say much about the comment. but, your right.

& Thanks-- for the comment Rapunzel, there have been many times where I have given advice on subjects I struggle with...I think thats okay sometimes because hearing advice from someone who struggles with the same thing and someone who doesn't or never has, is very different. there are pros and cons to both... at least I know if someone who cuts gives me a response they understand EXACTLY where I'm coming from, people who've never done it, may give valuable advice but, they may not relate as well... see... so, yeah..I think its good when we help one another out.