T and I talked recently about how I've been feeling disconnected from everyone - including myself. I think for me, it's a defense mechanism. I have big feelings I'm trying to avoid, and when I try to avoid those, EVERYTHING, including connection with other people, goes with it. I stay really busy doing things like painting rooms, etc and it's so easy to disconnect.

I really am able to hold onto the connection with T lately, though. It is safe to feel with him, so I don't have to disconnect while I'm there, and I know he cares about me, and I try to take that with me (along with as many items I can get from his desk! lol) when I leave. It took a LONG time to be able to hold onto that connection.

Why do you think you are disconnecting?