Yeah I am very disconnected from people. In my case I am terrified of getting close for fear of being hurt or shamed. I have trouble with filters, so I either trust fully, or don't trust at all, which puts me in a continually vulnerable position. So I don't connect with anyone because I cant figure out the in-between place, the place between total submission and adoration of a person, and total disconnection. I told my T last session it feels like I am in a full-body cast most of the time. Anyone who gets close to me will experience.. Bad things. I'd rather shut them out than cause any harm. Maybe this rings a bell for you?