a friend emailed me yesterday and asked for the info regarding my house and my mortgage since i've been home from work now for 4 months.

she is a professional financial administrator so i thought she'd have some suggestions. the bank has certainly been hopeful towards trying to work something out with me.

her advice was that i am most likely going to lose the house, and that even if i were magically "better" tomorrow it could take a year or more to find a new job... so getting an extension on paying the mortgage for a few months probably won't do any good.

as to "magically better" tomorrow i still don't feel as if i've made any progress at all. i am still severely depressed, none of the meds have helped yet, none of the therapy has helped yet, i'm still physically and emotionally non-functional... i drag myself out of the house for my support groups but can't do much more than that, have been unable to get anything done at home (this has gotten even worse over the past few weeks) and it is getting just harder and harder to not stay in bed all day.

i ran out of hope a long time ago but now i'm running out of time too.

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-- Dave
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