(((((Abby)))))))))

I so understand this. For me, it is the feeling of being lonely even when I am in the middle of people I love and who love me. It is like a dark cloud that follows me everywhere I go. It is a gaping hole, an abyss inside of me. It gets filled when I go to therapy and sometimes on other occasions, but once I leave, it starts leaking again and I have to really work to keep it from running empty.

For me, the reason behind it is depression and anxiety(which I will always struggle with) and some other unknown reason yet to be discovered. You asked this.......

"I'm not really sure what you mean by 'it is the process of therapy that helps us to find what the gaping hole is about', - does that mean there is a reason for the gaping hole? Is it important to find out why I feel this way because everything is always so complicated with me in therapy and it wouldn't surprise me if there aren't any concrete reason behind my feelings! "

My answer is...........do you find this hole is filled when you are in therapy? Even partially? Because if it is filled there, then I hope and believe, at least for me.........that I can find a way in time to fill that away from therapy. On my own. I believe there is always a reason behind our feelings. I will have to deal with an element of the always leaking bucket of loneliness for the rest of my life, but I do know from therapy that it can be better than it is. Our feelings are like symptoms of a disease sometimes............the feelings are speaking for something deeper, and hopefully therapy can help you find that. I firmly believe there are reasons for everything, even feelings. It may be in your subconscious, it may be hard to pinpoint, but just the fact that it is bothering you says to me that it, whatever IT is, wants to be heard. I hope this helps.