Hi, Mysterious!
Sounds like you're in a whirlwind physically and emotionally. If you're like me, your animals bring much joy into your life, but with limited funds, I understand a concern for keeping them fed. Is SSDI a livable income at all?
I'm not a good one to offer advice with relationships since I was divorced about 10 years ago and haven't been in a serious one since.
Hang in as best you can and please always feel free to send a PM to me.