oh wow ... allme, I'm so sorry.
I hope you've been able to cope and live a better life since then. My story is somewhat similar regarding mom being bipolar and seeking love through other means including sex.
I know that this is a sticky subject for a lot of us, but I have found that the more I open up about old wounds or scars, the better they heal. That's just me though ...
I hope this thread did not bring anyone to a place in their past that was long forgotten and buried. It was not my intention.