I totally understand what you mean by feeling "fake." I am still new to working with my T and for the first month I felt "fake" most of the time until I realized it was because for the first time I was finally being honest with myself. Which of course seems odd because it is not the in control me I present to everyone else. I'm working on ways to marry the me in my head with the one I present to the rest of the world. I'm not sure what that ceremony will look like, but I have promised to throw myself a kick @ss reception when it happens - there will be dancing!

Just this week I found something poking out from a dark corner in my brain that I need to bring up with T at some point. My problem is voicing it makes it real and if I just keep it in my head then it remains "just a thought." Typing that makes me feel silly.