I have a few fears.

When i'm walking anywhere at night, i think that every person is a rapist and is going to rape me.

When i sit alone on my balcony at night i imagine some psycho is going to see my silhouette in the light and pull a gun on me and shoot me.

When i'm alone in my room i think people are going to walk in and give me a fright.

My schizophrenia means that i feel i'm always being watched 24-7. But the 'watching' never has an origin except often belonging to a particular person, however i know it's in my head and originates from my thoughts. I like it , it's company.

I've read 'watching' is common in schizophrenia. There's this book that was fantastic on it. I'll see if i can find the name for you.

Take care!

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