I find her treatment of you appalling as well. You wrote about it once before and I couldn't believe what I was reading. This kind of treatment would have completely eroded my self-esteem during a time when I was vulnerable. I don't get it. She sounds, to me, very frustrated and impatient. I think her behavior is unprofessional and potentially harmful. I understand that she cares about you and you value your relationship, but have you ever told her this kind of treatment upsets you? You deserve kindness, patience, acceptance and positive regard...

Take gentle care of yourself. I hope you feel better.