cstrong82,
I'm sorry for what you are going through, it must be quite exhausting for you.

You don't have to answer this in public.... but before you had your baby--- were you basically OK? And another question...... was the birth with complications??-- or traumatic in some way?

I experienced trauma during the delivery of my first child. -- I read how some women actually experience PTSD in some instances, during childbirth.

And also-- contrary to what some people say-- humans do not have a built in instinct to care for infants-- we have to learn it from example or be taught-- Could it be that you are anxious about being a new mother?

Just some things to think about.... I feel for you-- mothering is very very hard. If you want to PM me you are welcome to do so anytime.

Wishing you the best,
mandy