|
Jun 24, 2011, 11:33 PM
|
 |
|
|
Member Since: Jan 2011
Location: Hell
Posts: 5,109
|
|
sorry for those who didn't know her but i miss her sooooooo very much and i just wated to say............love you erica!!!!!!!!!! i miss you everyday, PC is not the same without you.....wow you sure did leave a massive hole in my heart....wish you was here...with your bubbly personality, all the hugs, the love and care you shared with everyone....you became a bear for a reason....and that reason is b/c we love/ed you like you are/were family  you was my sis.....we have had many convosations and each time if i had know i wouldnt have said good bye, i wouldnt have let you go.....i would have stayed with you......but i didnt know....now i was too late...each day goes by with no one really knowing or caring but deep down me i cry for you...sometimes i hate to let it surface but half the time i can not help it.....i say your name and i cry...i look at your picture and i cry...i read some of the posts that you wrote.....and all the time i'm wishing you kept your promise, wishing you would come back, wishing that it wasnt true, wishing and wishing and wishing and wishing now i just dont know what to do with myself, some times i want to SI other times i want to be sick, sometimes i want to be with you but other times i'm glad i have people here. they help me get by each day, put a smile on my face but its still not the same the way i felt when you came into a room...you told me you loved me, you gave me a hug, you said i made you feel special, you said you loved the way i always greeted you.....you even said one time that you saw i was on and came into chat before you was going to do something stupid...that made me feel special knowing me just being here helped you and stopped you from what you had planned....near the end i wasn't here....to greet you the way i did, i wasn't here for you when you needed me the most....i let you down and for that i'm sorry....may you be happy now and in peace...just know you was loved by many and are truely missed  heartbrokenspecial
__________________
Don't get caught up in what could be, instead appreciate what is. Appreciate what you have & who you have, because the future can take it away from you.
iamspecial is thinking....when all else fails....sit back...look at it....then re-think and start again
|