HI! I want to start off by saying i'm happy to find a place with REAL answers, and NOT ppl praying on the emotions of others IDK where to start, but im going to try! I been with my "BF" for almost 7 years now and im SO TIRED of this relationship....SO TIRED! We have 3 kids together and i want to leave so bad! I'm what u called a stay at home mom and he works. IDK if im wrong for feeling this way but i want to leave but have no money and no where to go or friends or family! I feel he dont care about me...If we get into it and i leave he dont even bother to call to see if im OK! I could be dead or got ran off the road you know? We NEVER talk, we dont argee on things all he cares about is SEX! Which i HATE sex with him he dont know my body and its been the same way for about 7 years! No talking, kissing, 4play etc! ONE WAY ONLY! I talk to him about different ways we can change it up and he ALWAYS ask why?! To top it off he cheated EVERYTIME i was pregnant, but yet was too tired to come to my appts! He keeps saying he DONT KNOW WHY HE DOES IT! Like a dummy i take him back, but im not in love with him anymore...Not to make it out like im perfect after i found out he was cheating i started cheating too! I was looking for love and someone to care about me and in the end always got used or hurt too... So of course i dont now and just wanna feel and be loved...I feel like a lost cause! He works and im suppose to do all the cooking and cleaning and i DO but he makes a mess AND never cleans up! To make it worse he now has his brother here on the weekends who dont S*** either! So im left with ALL the cooking and cleaning after three kids and two grown ***** men and im tired! I told him to tell his brother to clean up after himself instead of doing that he just said I WONT BRING HIM NO MORE!! Its like any and everything his brother tell him to do HE DOES! He jumps up when his brother wants beer but when i ask him to go to the store he takes HOURS... He never does anything with me! He dont go shopping or does anything but does with his brother! OH!!! To top it off when he is off all does is play his game...I tell him to go the store or help me with something he only does AFTER his game...Its like everything with that games comes before ME and even his kids. Only thing he does good is WORK nothing else while im THANKFUL to God for that but when your with someone you suppose to make them HAPPY! I try to be nice im a loving giving touchy person with him i cant be that way...I have talk to him he change for a few days then right back to him! When we do talk he always put me down or if i say im going to do something he goes.."no your not" always pointing out the BAD IN ME...I want to leave but how? Where? He told me more then once if i leave he wouldnt look for me, he only will because of his kids but bascially can careless about me leaving! His mom is a nice person dont get me wrong BUT everything she say do concerning OUR kids he does then makes me feel like im not a good mother or living up to his mother's status of motherhood... IDK what to do! Its so much more to this story you just dont know....It's like he walks around not giving a care about how i feel! I cryed all day yesterday and even went to seek help and they told me they dont just "talk" to people i need a real MENTAL reason for being seen by a T....And maybe i should go see my doctor for some pills! WHAT? I'm NOT crazy just need someone to talk to you know? What can i do? Im soooo stress and racking my brains on how to leave this realationship...Apart of me just wants to pick up and leave with my kids and drive until i have no more gas and where ever state and city i end up will be our new home which wont be far with no money for gas Anyone can help me? PLEASE? Am i wrong?