How will you feel if she responds with list of referrals? Or with a message telling you that no, she doesn't know that particular T, or yes she does? And that she would be willing to send your records to the new T? How will you feel if she doesn't ask you to come in and work through this, this time? Just trying to help you see how these ruptures/ attempts and repair can go downhill fast, when you try to elicit certain responses from T while asking for a different response.