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Originally Posted by Korin
shoez,
If this is seriously disrupting your life, the only way to know for sure what the problem is is to ask your doctor for a referral to a psychiatrist or a psychologist for assessment.
But be warned that is a long hard road you may not want to go down.
If it isn't seriously disrupting your life, I suggest that you simply flow with it and take care of yourself through and during each experience.
Keeping a journal of your experiences can help. And if you should ever find yourself feeling confused about what is going on, reading the journal can help.
Staying calm definitely helps as does accepting yourself for who you are.  |
I dont want to go down a hard road..I dont want to suffer more than is necessary. But It is disrupting because Ill make realy big decisions, like completely change my career course, or spend rediculous amounts of money...which means changing the entire thing, going to a different school...I have gone so far to be obsessed with something to the point where I was willing to die for it. I willl go through phases where even if I get beatings I dont feel it I dont care....and then its like the real me comes out and is so depressed and doesnt understand. I dont even know if this makes any sense. But its too frustrating, it affects my money, my reltionships...It affects the way I dress..it affects things I throw out and keep in my house. It affects where I go to school, and the people I hang out with.
How do I go from religious nut, to wanting to color my hair streaked blue and go and do drugs and get a piercing...
I got a piercing and few months later I took it out because it disgusted me...when I was so happy I got it before. Its so frustrating! Why cant I make up my mind about ANYTHING. I could have gotten an infection.
Ill wear belly shirts for a long time and not care how many men look at me.....Ill like it. and the next few months im scared out of my mind if ONE guy looks at me wierd...and Ill wear long skirts and shirts and im scared og every man and I could never imagine myself getting married, and I want to take the belly ring off and never see it again.
It extends far more than just varied interests... Its really frustrating because when I change I change 180 degrees. I just change so much..and its not fun. Its not like Im having a fabulous time expanding horizons or anything, because when Im completely immersed in the situation Its like I just wake up and think WHAT AM I DOING I DONT WANT TO BE HERE?!. I Im really scared of telling anybody I do this I know its bizarre..and what scares me the most is that I have NO control over this...and if I tell someone..what if they send me to some mental ward or something! I dont want that.. Im scared of making decisions because they change so radically.
Im telling you, one day Im church going girl and the next minute Ill be acting like I was never hurt and I dont care what men do to me and I even went to a party with a bunch of guys. Which right now...makes me cringe just thinking about it...Im so scared of men....Im freaking out constantly that they want to hurt me...so how was I so different a few months ago??? I DONT GET IT. I just dont know what to do anymore. Im not even asking for a diagnosis..I just want to know if someone relates at all.. Is there anybody that relates.
That has gone through this.. its so incredibly frustrating.
Im sorry if I sound like I am yelling, Im not...Im just really scared I dont know where to turn anymore