Sounds like a lot of turmoil going on...sorry to hear that...welcome to PC!

I would suggest working with a professional in spite of the issue you had trying to see someone. Whether you stay or go...I would suggest concentrating on boundaries and assertiveness...many times when we don't communicate our boundaries assertively we feel walked on like a doormat. Anyway that is kind of the feel I get from your post. I did something similiar in my marraige...either way you go you'll really need to develop these skills. Good Luck