Ok, so I was supposed to see my therapist tomorrow. Some of you know that I have been trying to see her since november, and that the one I was supposed to have early this month got cancelled. Well, the one that I was supposed to have tomorrow, got cancelled because she got called to court. Again, knowing that I would see her has been keeping me alive, and now I can't see her until next wed. Somehow I think that this on will be cancelled too. I don't know what to do. I am so frustrated, because it's like when I really need to see her, she can't fit me in. And my mom and I have told her office that I really needed to see her, but still, they haven't got me in any sooner. I am not sure that I can make it to next week. I've had to fight so hard just to make it this far....

~sigh~

[b]<font color=blue> I can't take this anymore and I'm almost pretty sure that I've been here before. I can't take this any longer I won't heal until I'm stronger. Strong enough to not be afraid --Oleander[b]<font color=blue>