No it was that she was only going to text me on the days that she doesn't see me. I can only text her positive things but I can still text if I feel like cutting. You would think Sui thoughts belong in that category wouldn't you? I sent her a text late last night apologising say I feel like sh-- but didn't mean to take it out on her and that I was sorry, I also asker her if she was mad at me. Before I went to bed I sent her another saying "I'm still struggling but I'm still here. I guess that's all." This afternoon I sent one more asking if she was mad at me. I still haven't heard anything.