Uh, yeah, you did Tay. You used the word manipulative more than once, actually, and said I am not being honest.

It is probably really easy to sit here and read the threads and play pretend therapist, analyzing every word and pointing out any perceived inconsistencies. I don't know what you get out of that, but it sure as fukk isn't as hard as coming here and being open and vulnerable about your emotions and your actions. I post here because I am trying to figure out why I do what I do, and how to make my life better. I could just lurk and read and criticize, but I don't. I put myself out there. And in the process I open myself up to attacks like yours, but that doesn't mean I have to take your words to heart. I doesn't even mean I have to read them.

You have given me good feedback in the past and I have appreciated your ability to show me another way to look at things. This is not that kind of constructive criticism, however. This is abuse, and the insights I may glean from some of your posts are not enough to make it worth it. I wish you luck, Tay. I hope someday you work as hard in therapy as I do.