Thanks Stormyangels. You have given a lot of good advice. I am asking for help and I am willing to try some of the things you suggested. I think I'll start with the smaller ones like not creating more ways to SI and to make a list of things I would like my T to say to me in her caring voice, not the stern one. The life list I will save for last. I wonder if sleep would be helpful as well? You are right the voices aren't going anywhere anytime soon without any seroquel or something -which I am being denied. My biggest fear is ending up in the psych ward again...