I thought I was over all of this but its not true. I stop for about 2 months before I started up again. Now all I do is either SI or think about the next time I will be able to do it. Everything seems to be setting me off, with everyday things that we performed everyday, it just seems to be affecting me so much now and it's all I can do.
I also know that it is getting worse than the last time I SI for the first time.