((((Flooded)))) Thats sounds like a really difficult thing to do without the support of T. I've been away from T for a little over a semester now. Journaling helped, and I also wrote down a lot of encouraging or important things that she has told me and look at it when I'm feeling lonely. When I was really desperate for a reply I emailed back and forth with Good Samaritans. It wasn't the same as T, but at least I had somebody at the other end.