Have you ever heard of faking it till you make it? I think I need some of that right now.

My T has been conveying all this stuff to me, "you're not motivated," "you don't seem hopeful." And.. I'm not!!!! Which is part of why I'm in therapy!!!!!! Could I just be a bad patient?

I'm really wondering a lot about all this stuff. Like why live? Why quit abusing my body? I almost feel ready to quit therapy-- I feel like maybe this is pretty much all I'm going to get out of this?

And the thing is we have some communication problems and it's only been like 6 sessions so we don't know each other that well.

You know how sometimes someone will be acting bad, and then you find out that they were really upset about something?

I don't want to share the upset part with anyone. I would rather just be bad right now.

How do I fake it??? How do I learn how to be good? At being a patient? And at MY LIFE???????

Thanks for any replies.