I agree with what everyone has said here and couldn't say it better. One thing that popped out at me was when Dragonfly mentioned the world grays out and the only color is red that she sees. That is exactly what happens to me and the red is very vivid and bright.
I also experience the Alice in Wonderland effect that Lewis Carroll wrote about. It usually happens with my car. I can appear very small in proportion to the size of the car. The key appears very large and heavy and I can't figure out how to get the key into the lock. If I manage to get into the car, the steering wheel seems large and I can't see over the hood to drive. Or, in other instances, I appear to large for the car and can't figure out how to get into it. There have been debates if this is a seizure aura, migraine aura or part of the spectrum of dissociation I experience. While this is going on, I separate from myself and feel like I am floating over the car watching myself.
One day, while in Sears, I was at the checkout counter and suddenly the clerk appeared 2 football fields away from me. She was very tiny, but carrying on as if nothing was wrong. I was unable to process the sale and as I was walking out, the floor underneath me was shifting and I couldn't find out where to put my feet. Then when I finally managed to get to the glass door, there were two glass panels and I just stood there wondering which one is the door until someone behind me opened the door to go out. I don't remember anything until I found myself standing beside my car door waiting to get inside and go home. Driving was frightening as I had no concept of what the lines on the street meant, how to keep my car between the lines, what the red or green light meant. I just followed the car in front of me, like follow the leader in kindergarden. It was a miracle I didn't end up in an accident. I realized eventually, I was having difficulties and a part of me took over and drove the car home. I was wiped out for the rest of the day, in a daze of sorts. I don't remember what the trigger was, but I do remember entering the store and feeling spaced out as if my head was detached and floating above my body.
Last week, I went in to pay my utility bill at my property managers office. Now, I have lived her 3 years and the employees have all been there during this time, but suddenly I didn't recognize anyone and asked if they were all new and what their names were. Needless to say, it will be a long time before I go back there. When I figured out what happened, due to the varied responses from the employees there, I was soo mortified and disappointed in myself. That same day, I had to go to my vets office to pick up a prescription. I wondered if I was safe enough to go, thought maybe I should give it a day, but then someone took over and reassured everything would be okay, so I went along. I usually get a hug from one of the techs there and .... well, this is embarrassing.... during the hug, my hand went to her butt and I patted it. I had never done this before and have no idea why I did this. I apologized and fled, leaving my prescription behind.
I feel like I am a walking danger to myself at times.
Hoping some of these examples explains this strange phenomenon.
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