I was looking for some feedback in terms of "what would you do"...here is the scenario....

You cannot afford private therapy. Throughout the years, you have gone through all the public therapy routes but have not been able to find a reliable, consistent long term therapist willing to deal with your multitude of issues, originating from past traumas/experiences. The public system cannot meet your needs. You become more isolated and withdrawn from society, heading towards agoraphobia, with each year that passes.

A friend is willing to help finance lower cost private services - 20% of the regular rate sliding scale private therapy or online therapy - but a) you are totally not in any way comfortable or willing to accept financial assistance (pro bono services from a therapist are one thing, but gifts from others do not sit well with you - you can't do it) and b) you are heading towards agoraphobia so how would online therapy be helpful - it is hard enough to trust someone in person, let alone when you can't see them. But your only other option, having given up on the public system, is ....no therapy at all and everything stays the same....or gets worse.

Would you just accept the status quo and say well that's it, there are no answers for me (given you have tried so much over the years and nothing has worked out publicly)? Would you accept "non-perfect" therapy options that are available...ie that either mean you accept financial assistance or don't get face to face therapy? I am just wondering others would do if faced with this dilemma.

Many thanks for any comments you might have!