For my first 2 or 3 sessions, I was in mindset of trying to be a 'good client'. but at some point, I realized how much I was stressing about that, how much anxiety was coming from trying to be what I thought I was supposed to be. The first session after I decided to 'stop trying', I pretty much dissociated the whole session. In another session, I pretty much shut down at the beginning.

It's very hard to not try to be what or who I think i'm supposed to be in session... but it feels worth it because I am finally showing her, really, what we need to work on. If hadn't made the conscious decision to just go in there and just 'be', she'd never see how much anxiety I have and how deeply it has affected my life.

This last session we had, I think she finally started to see where I was at and how she can help/guide me.

Don't try... just be. It's ok not to know how to describe your feelings. I don't and she's never made me feel wrong for not knowing. Sometimes not knowing IS being honest.