Thank you all, I want to respond to these individually. I figured out what is bugging me and it is that my T assumes that the clashes between our personalities are all my fault and that other people see that as a bad thing in me. Very few people see me as a "bad girl." I have worked all my life to be in the top whatever percentile... in fact, I want to do the same thing in treatment!! But it is going to be so hard because now that I've pissed my T off everything is going to be about that. I feel like she wants to see me SUFFER for my sins now. And she keeps bringing up that "if I feel that way maybe everyone else does too?" But does everyone else feel that I am mean and difficult? I'm not sure??????????????????????

P.S. The authenticity stuff is a real issue. She could be a perfect T and I would still have that exact problem.