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Originally Posted by Jenn1fer82
Really... I am doing the right thing and what I'm feeling is reasonable thing? I guess thats what I needed to hear the most is the reassurance that i'm not going crazy with the many self doubts and not sure what so do with myself. with all this new realization about myself I feel overwhelmed and not sure what to do with myself afterwards. My bf already sense that I'm not acting like myself bc he would typically expect me to accuse him of lying and to see me so angry but instead I didn't say much, not that I'm ignoring him, the situation or myself. I rather step back and let things sink in and reflect on them so that maybe I can figure out whats the best thing to do. ahh.... its all so complicated
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((Jenn1fer82))
It takes time to get to know what the root cause of the problem is.
It isn't right to blow up on your bf all of the time. That's a negative pattern that does need to be changed. Whether your bf is the "right" man for you is still unknown. That's something that you need to work on with your T.
I've been questioning myself and my actions for YEARS. Unfortunately, getting to know myself has not been an easy task. Instead, I'm focusing on living as best as I can now. In the moment. Working through past decisions that effect today's life does take time. That's my experience. I'm not the smartest cookie on the block though ~ it takes LOTS of repetition, cues, and writing things down.
Perhaps you may want to try working through your thoughts on paper? Different avenues sometimes can help us work through things more quickly.