I feel like I'm the most disorganized person on earth but something I find strange is the number of people who say they think I'm the most organized person they know. My world seems totally chaotic to me and I eternally feel overwhelmed by what seems like total disorganization but very few people seem to realize what crazy stuff I do...which, I suppose, is a good thing!

My father used to say I had been trying to get organized since birth and that wasn't a totally misguided observation. Something in my very soul cries out that it is of urgent importance that everything in my life needs to be orderly but it's just the opposite - I crave organization so much that I stay totally disorganized.

I read not long ago that the world of an adult with ADD/ADHD is a series of piles. How true is that? Right now I have a pile of stuff on the dining room table, a pile of stuff on the guestroom bed, a pile of stuff on the kitchen counter, a pile of clothes in the laundry room, a pile of winter stuff still in the sunroom - I constantly generate piles of belongings that I have every intention of organizing and I cannot put them away until I'm convinced they're sorted AND nine times out of ten I'm busily creating new piles while I'm sorting the old piles. It almost sounds funny and I'm at least bright enough to see what I'm doing to myself but I cannot make myself function any differently.

This all being said, yet another oddity in the way I function is people sometimes ask me to help them pack to move. They say I'm the best when it comes to organizing and packing things...but I can't even put away Christmas decorations in June in my own home without feeling like they've got to be organized and I can't see how!!!