I've been really feeling confident about where I am at .... anxiety is less(just realized that my nails are getting long and I didn't even try to stop biting them), need to control everything is less, expressing feelings more, letting walls down and letting people in...
Since money is very tight and I'm paying for therapy out of pocket, I decided to discuss with T. the process of stopping therapy.
Why is it when I have a whole conversation figured out in my head, the other person doesn't follow the script? I knew it would be difficult because I don't like conflict or telling people something that they are not going to like. I just didn't expect that the T. would be so questioning...
First, he said most people who want to stop say its money but that it usually isn't the real reason....I said that I felt ready to just live my life with all the new things I learned...he said he hated to see me stop....asked if I would do group therapy...
Now I'm obsessing about why he thinks I should not stop. It has totally undermined my confidence as to how well I'm doing. Makes me think that he sees more things I need to work on that I don't realize yet. Should I ask him why he doesn't want me to stop? Should I ask him if there are other things he sees that I need to work on? I told him before I wasn't interested in a diagnosis, but should I ask for one? Would your T. tell you these things if you asked?
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