Hi Izraehl. No matter who you are in this world or how much money/help you receive, there is going to be someone who is richer or smarter than you. If you become envious of all of them, you'll spend your life always being jealous of someone else and not enjoying what you have.

My advice would be to find a way to learn to be happy for others while celebrating the positive things in your life including your achievements. Some of the ways that others have done this is by positive affirmations, meditation, naming things everyday that you're thankful for, etc. Perhaps one of the achievements you'll be proud of someday is being independent and able to accomplish things without a lot of help from others.

Take care, slow