How I coped for three months.... Through staying really busy, and not letting myself do much.

And to add to everything. I can say that I really did SI, just because of a 4 inch heal, and an uneven surface. I twisted my knee, and then continued to walk on it for a 1/4 of a mile. So I could have made it worse, but I didn't care. (I wore the shoes for a wedding, as a brides maid) Yes, things are not going well, at all.

as to the reason why I don't want to tell anyone, I just don't want to have the meds changed again or to see the look of complete disappointment in there Eyes. Not wonderful but, it doesn't help at all.

Here's the other thing. I just don't care about me. I've lost so much of my worth as they treatment team says. But for me, I just don't feel like myself at all. I know it's the depression, I have been trying to get rid of it all, but I've got a few issues.

With all that has happened, as far as getting my degree, that's the only thing that I can think of, to stay and get better, not for me, but to get a B.S. and then move on.