I don’t know exactly what is but I’m really anxious and scared. I’m scared of being alone, I know I’ll do something, I know it. It’s been too long since I last did. I can’t resist.

I don’t know who I can reach out to. I’m not thinking logically, I know it. I can’t think of anyone to call, anyone who would really care.

I love coming here but it really isn’t enough. I don’t know what to do, I’m so freaked out. My head is going to explode. SI will clear my head, at least for a little bit, at least until I can... I don’t know where that thought was even going. I can’t even explain what is going through my head. I’m in a full out panic now.