I think that if i didn't have such severe rejection and abandonment issues, then my t's business and lack of response wouldn't bother me so much, and i would be able to look at things logically and not feel bad. But something about it just feels so reminiscent of the past, where i wasn't helped or protected or responded to when i was in distress -- and i can't handle how it makes me feel. It's like having an emotional flashback or something. The pain is extreme, and i can't put things into proper context.