OK... y'all kept encouraging me...soooooooo today after seeing my T again, and his concern with how ill I am still...and his idea of contacting a radiology center rather than an ER for the xrays...

I called my (regular) ins. co. to find a preferred provider... and there was none except the hospitals. .. not nearby anyway. So I called the new hospital ER and the same guy who has the personality of a carrot tried giving me the same static answers. (Said answers/comments my T had warned me about...)

I felt I would get the same reaction if I went there... so I went to the closer, older hospital, script in hand....

the one lady who obviously was the regular intake(r) got up and left the counter ... and right then someone from the back saw me and came forward to help me... I told her, I've been trying to get this done for a week.... I just need an xray... and I don't do this scene well. She said, What? So I told her again, and added. I have PTSD and the noise and lights and all, I don't do this well.

She was so nice and understanding. It's like I said a key watchword or something...and her whole demeanor changed, she came around to my side of the counter, asked if it would be better if...and she pulled a chair from the large room over to nearer the counter, and the door... where she let me sit... and she pushed my xray through within 45 minutes.

After the xray, though, I told them I was going to go on home. NO no no the xray tech said NOOOO I don't think you can do that said the lady who wheeled me back to the ER waiting room... then the lady from behind the scene, who had done my intake, came out and explained how I needed to stay until the doctor was sure I didn't need treatment...etc OK I'll try and do that..

Well...I made it another 30 minutes...but then...

some strange noise... and tension in the ER waiting room... I thought it might have been a baby, then a small child? then..oh maybe an old woman crying?... after a minute or two...all eyes were on a man on one side of the waiting room... and he was becoming more and more hyper upset...crying while trying to??? IDK whisper?

I got up to stand in the air lock part of the doorway... then as he became louder, I moved out to the outside near the door. I saw a group of ER techs/nurse engage this guy...and felt the tension...

all too much for me, and a perfect way to "escape" they wouldn't miss me for several minutes! I slipped the valet my receipt and waited like I was just getting air...and when the car came ...whoosh I was gone! Let them call my doctor, right?

But at least I got the xrays done. Now I can fearlessly call my MD for further treatment? If she doesn't call me first tomorrow. hehehe I think I'm still delirious with fever though...

Thanks y'all...wouldn't have done it without ya!