(((((((Masimo)))))))))

I think a part of you is questioning what you feel FROM him. You know what you feel towards him and you are wondering about how he feels towards you? And of course we know why? (Duh, I hate it when they ask that question).
Do not question the caring, empathetic, supportive, unconditional nature of the feelings you feel from him in therapy. He cannot fake it. They are real. Let them into your heart. Let them help you get to a place of healing.
Remember, there are limits in the therapeutic relationship. If you knew him in real life, it would not be like this. You get the best of him for one hour a week. Him, at his best..........no dirty socks, no messy dishes, the whole focus is on you. Fantasy is always better than reality. NO ONE can live up to the reality.
He wouldn't be there to help you if he didn't care. He wouldn't spend an hour a week with you if he didn't care. He probably wouldn't even be a therapist if he didn't want to help people. Yes, he gets paid..........but he cares. I can feel it in his response to you. But to keep you safe, to keep himself safe..........it has to stay within the safety net of the T relationship. I have experienced similar situations with transference feelings with T. And I got to a point where I realized I really want T to be my T............not anything else in my life, because the T relationship is very very special, highly symbollic............the feelings are real, for him, from him............but it would be MUCH MUCH different in the real world and you would lose what you have in therapy with him. A good book to read is In Session by Deborah Lott. That may help you.