yor average person has there ego's (id,whatever) maturing/growing between the ages of 4,5,6.....(the hippocampus and amiglidar(probably didnt even spell it right,oh well). the hippocampus is the part of my brain were all the bad memories come from and from behind my right ear is were i heard all the voices trying to talk at once,like a convention. couldnt make out what they were trying to say except once in a while and it used to scare me very much. it scared me so much i didnt even want to tell anybody cuz i thought it might scare them tooo.....

at this point in my life(4,5,6) I had my first half dozen traumas. my brain did not grow right. i have no id,ego,or superego.......i do not think the way average people think, let alone.....act the way average people act.

from the youngest point of my brain growth,4,5,6, i would improvise,adapt,overcome and create a entirely new person.....and way of living. after the first half dozen traumas, there were twenty seven more traumas to follow.....there is only three in frueds therory. each and every trauma created a safe haven inside of my brain.

i had numerous protecters. i have been in over fifty five street fights, but, not all of those fights were traumatizing. i am service connected. i have traumas from the military. i had d.i.d.....i am now one man with a concious that speaks to me, litterally,inside of my head(one voice today). i will not ever have frueds therory of id ,superego,ego, but thats just me.....and i'm ok with it....and maybe i'm wrong...but, oh well........