thanks for all the support/advice. I just now came back across this. I wish psychcentral would give me some type of warning so I would know that I got responses... I post on so many threads ...anywho... its gotten WORSE since I last posted.. I was taking three summer classes and I had to drop one, I'm hoping with a little will power, I'll be able to pass the other two and move forward. YES, this is hard for me, because this will, indeed, effect me forever...

It's kinda like now or never in choosing a major... I have like 2 years and at this point I'll be taking all of my junior/senior level classes after I'm done with the summer. All, except for one. So, if I don't make up my mind, I will stay in school to become a TEACHER-- (education is my degree). However, I really want to be a school counselor so I'm hoping to get a masters in counseling. Yes, I need a plan. I do well on things/life when I am interested in what I'm doing. I think I just need a clear/ WRITTEN plan, strategy... instead of it all being disgombobbled, in my head, floating around... ughhh, I need this advisor to stop going on vacation and meet with me!

Thanks you all for offering some hope my way though, what really keeps me going is actually, exactly what you said, its like I have 2 years left...I spent about 3 years in college.. its kinda dumb to quit but, yes, I went to college right after high school and if I had of understood myself like I do now, if I understood what I currently understand, theres no way I would have went to college, I think I'm better suited for a trade school or something, where you earn the degree in 2 or 3 years. Thats just me. but, now I'm stuck with what I'm stuck with.

thanks for being so open Jabrielle... good luck to you too and sorry for your loss, hang in there!

I quit seeing the school counselor... not a good fit... too lazy to find a new one... I've always thought I had a learning disability but, my parents always have said and my therapist said a year or two ago that there is nothing wrong with me... in that aspect.. however, my therapist said that after knowing me for like 2 months, so Idk how accurate that is..really?