ok I am a man, at the age of 17, I was in bed one night, and I was thinking of scoring with girls, in two weeks i was going to a concert where a lot of rock and some tropical music bands would play, the concert was here in my city, I was imagining that i was scoring with the girls and making out and stuff, (this next part is going to sound a little ridiculous) I had read a book about something called "the law of attraction", and among other things, it said that when u imagine something, u feel it too as if it was happening. I have to say that i have always been attracted to girls, but well that thought came to my mind and while i was picturing myself kissing that girl I was not feeling anything: Well then I thought "hey im feeling nothing", "what if i am gay?" or something like that, the thing is that since that moment, those thoughts havent left my mind, even when i give answers and answers and answers, they dont go away, no answer seems to be strong enough, or if it is strong, the other arguments come again, and dude i'll tell u that's very disturbing, those thougts are so horrifying.

I am 22 years old now, and this situatin has affected my life in so many levels, my grades are very bad in college, and i feel very scared most of the time.

these days I have been looking in several mental health websites, and I found something called HOCD, or Homosexual Obsessive Compulsive Desorder. I think that's what I have...

thanks to u people anyway