I feel like I'm too attached, but in an insecure way. I think about the t relationship way too much and want to have contact between sessions. It leads to disappointment because i feel the desire and wanting to be close to my t (and she seems to encourage me to attach). But if i allow myself to start reaching out and wanting connection, then very soon, i am banging up against a boundary, such as her telling me that she doesn't have time to reply to my email. It really hurts to feel that attachment pull and let yourself be vulnerable and try to get some of that need met, only to repeatedly walk into a wall and realize that you've "gone too far."

I can't seem to find the right balance when it comes to attachment, and it really hurts trying to figure it out. I always end up going back to the place of pulling way back and trying to rid myself of the attachment feelings because it feels so bad when my t reminds me in subtle ways that I'm expecting too much.