I've posted twice now; you may have run across my history. 10 yr battle. First Major episode lasted 2+ years. I'm 16 months into my 2nd Major. Suicide survivor from the first. Patterns repeating. Family really never bothered to learn or support. Guess I need to teach them. Printed out some great quotes of what depression is like, suicidology etc. Any one out there have to teach their caregivers? Even thru my first episode, hospitalization etc - I came home to pay the bills & make the decisions. Someone has to come up to bat. Meds I'm on, not working, stayed home today to find a new Dr. & start psychotherapy again...I'm on a bad path, & I know the snap happens out of my control. Is this a weird thing to do?