I see a psychiatrist at the state facility. My T recommended my pdoc saying our personalities matched. I am scared of doctors and become so anxious around them I have panic attacks or cry throughout the sessions. Several of the pdocs at the state facility lable me borderline as a result of this. Since being matched with my pdoc things have gone very well. We have found the right meds to address my ptsd and bipolar. We have developed an excellent trusting relationship to address my needs. Now he has quit and i will be assigned to a new psychiatrist. Hearing this in my T's office led to a dissociative episode which i havent had in a long time. Also led to thoughts of self harm which i did not tell my T about. My T tries to assure me it should not be a big deal because we know what meds work and the new doc will follow in my old docs treatment plan. I of course am catastrophizing it. It nauseates me. This is like the end of the world for me.