Hey Beauty from Despair,

I am BP 1 but I experience mixed episodes at times too. I always feel a bit uncertain where I am when in that mood. Like I am not sad/depressed nor am I manic/happy. But then I can spring to depression or mania when it hits me and then the other mood hits me straight after. Kinda like your mind is jumbled up and hasn't got a clue what to think. I usually find in my writing that when I am mixed I will be all jumbled in what I am saying quite contradictory at times and unsure about what I want.

I guess everyone is different in their experiences.