I'm having trouble bringing up an issue with this guy I know. I wasn't sure what we were doing with each other, but I thought we were most likely dating. I had been wanting to ask him what he thought for months, but I couldn't get the nerve. Finally one day I asked him via text if he thought we were just friends. (I didn't want to text him this, but it was the only way I could get enough guts to do it) He said "I guess" but wanted to know what I thought. I said I liked him and wanted more. He said that we need to sit down and talk about this. However, this was the day before he went on vacation. While on vacation he called me and again said that when he got back we would talk about our situation.
So it has been 2 weeks since he has gotten back, but we still haven't talked about it. We have seen each other nearly every day, I go to his house to eat dinner most nights and we go for walks, but I can't seem to bring this up with him. I feel as though I just freeze and the words won't come out of my mouth. My therapist is expecting me to have this talk with him and I have already disappointed her once. I'm seeing her again this Friday, but I still can't seem to bring anything up with him. It bothers me that he hasn't brought it up either especially since he was the one that was adamant that we sit down and talk about this.
My therapist says I should write him a letter since I can't seem to talk about this, but I think that would be weird and awkward. I just want to talk about this with him so bad because the anxiety is killing me. Does anyone have any advice? What can I do? I keep setting deadlines for myself, but I always chicken out. I have to do this before Friday, I don't want to tell my therapist that I still didn't do this. It was hard enough for me to text him the original question. I thought it would be easier now that I had started the conversation before he went on vacation, but it isn't. What should I do?
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