I am a cancer survivor of 2 years. Unfortunately another brain tumor grew in the same area of my brain but is benign. I've been having a difficult time dealing with this. It feels like a never ending nightmare. I do things like drinking and smoking which I should not be doing, but its hard to cope. Especially when you are surrounded by people who don't quite understand how messed up your life is. The worse part for me is seeing my family and friends suffer because of condition. I've been finding myself telling lies that everything is ok/stable and they have nothing to worry about. I feel like I am a burden and I do not know what I should do. What is wrong with me?