Thanks ppl.

Jexa/LaceyLu---just want to be sure I didn't offend anyone with the "student loan" comment... just hard for me to even spend that money in general, for whats its supposed to be used for, school...I have a hard time using it to buy school supplies, just cus I just hate the idea of debt, so from a personal standpoint, its just something thats a little bit harder for me to do.. use that money, not to say or imply that others can't do that.! cus, u very well can.!

Plus, when my dad stopped paying that communicated to me that my personal issues are not important enough for an investment..at least not to him and although I try hard not to let that effect me, it certainly does sometimes...

As for all the feedback, thanks agn,

PTSDLovemy cats... a month really does FEEL like forever sometimes and haven't decided if I want to give this to my T,?

LastyearisBlank... I went to a school counselor for 3 sessions and then quit. Don't know whats next for me in that? Don't even know why I just didn't "click" with that counselor and I could have switched to a new one but, I didn't know what to say or who to go to for that...

Perna, although I hear you and I'm listening... for me, therapy is A LOT different than changing a job or school... I never felt the need to write numerous entries about the job I was leaving or the school I was changing... if therapy wasn't such a unique experience I would have never joined PC... going to therapy and sharing the most intimate, personal concerns, have left me with the most intimate, personal issues with the thought of leaving or ever leaving. just scares me to be attached to something, even when I know that is part of the process, at least a little bit.

itsmeshorti-- wow.. think you summed up something I was unaware of...

"Who needs therapy, well things fell apart with that, and now I still need that support, it shows I am not healed yet. Not enough to do it on my own. "

Just the sentence you said... "I am not healed yet."
I just need to think on that... maybe I have a lot more left than I thought...

GEEZ I think itsmeshorti made the point you we're trying to make... you are stronger now, I'm happy that you are, very proud of that! But, just like you, I feel we will always feel we have something to work on and grow in..cus' thats part of living... I guess its a matter of deciding what needs EXTRA tuning and attention (a.k.a. Therapy) and what can be dealt with, by forging your own path, goals, and healing in life.