Session Update: T. was very understanding and happy I came into talk so that I could enjoy my long weekend trip instead of obsessing over the past session. He told me that he does not want me to stop therapy but that he is not going anywhere so if I decide to reduce sessions or stop soon he will be around later if I decide I want to come back. I didn't ask about diagnosis but he did talk about what he thinks I still need to work on. He said that while I may have learned a lot about myself and what impact the CA has had on me, he doesn't think I've learned to change those behaviors/way of thinking...he said that is truely the hard work of therapy.... and I thought the hard part was the six months it took to get myself to tell the T. the story and to admit the CA. This is so much more complicated than I let myself think in the beginning....I don't know what I want to do but I do know paying T. out of pocket gets very expensive.