I recently mentioned to my T. that i felt ready to stop therapy. He doesn't want me to stop but that he is not going anywhere so if I decide to reduce sessions or stop soon he will be around later if I decide I want to come back.

He said that while I may have learned a lot about myself and what impact the CA has had on me, he doesn't think I've learned to change those learned patterns/behaviors/way of thinking...he said that is truely the hard work of therapy....

and I thought the hard part was the six months it took to get myself to tell the T. the story and to admit to myself the CA.

This is so much more than I let myself think in the beginning....I don't know what I want to do but I do know paying T. out of pocket gets very expensive.

Is it possible to change those learned patterns/behaviors/way of thinking that you learned as a young child...seems daunting?