Hiya AmandaLouise,

Thanks so much for taking the time to reply to me. What you described sounds like the terrifying prospect it is. So, can these alters take over and I not know it but am still functioning as if I were in charge? Like being able to do my job and go to school. Still knowing how to drive. Or do I always lose control and start acting different so other people can tell? I've only really heard of extreme cases and seen the portrayal on the American soap opera, One Life to Live. The way they portray it is my worst nightmare. They portray the real me being stuck inside my head with the other alters trying to figure out how to get out again. I did have one major dissociative episode seven years ago where I experienced that, like I described earlier.

What type of therapy helps best. I've noticed while in thought today that the number of prominent thought patterns that are morphing into personalities quite rapidly are increasing. At first there were three now there are probably five maybe six. I thought that one of the ones that is new was just a different one changing but looking closer at it I can tell them apart. They try to pretend like they are the same but I know better. That sounds a little paranoid, but whatever. I just need to be honest and figure out what the heck to do.

BTW, I'd like to suggest we have a double thanks on posts, so I can double thank you for your post. Your description, although terrifying, was extremely helpful in allowing me to understand.

Love and many hugs,
Tara

P.S. Sitting here typing I just remembered that when I drink I use a different name. It's a name of a childhood friend. I mean I don't just have one drink and then tell everybody my name is Tanya. I have to be beyond the point of knowing that I'm drinking. Pretty much I have to be drunk. Is that part of d.i.d.? Or is that just some weird thing I do?